So yesterday was my 23rd birthday. It was a very strange birthday for sure. Well, not strange maybe just different from the years past. It was spent in church, with family, no drama, no tears (ok no angry tears, there were tears.)
In years past I have been surrounded with friends, alcohol, and loud music to bring in my birthday and to help celebrate it. This year I as surrounded with family, God, and free time to become completely absorbed in how my life is going and how it can be changed in the very near future. I really enjoy going to church I really really do. It seems that every time I have gone to church recently it has been that God has been speaking directly to me. My birthday was no different, I heard God's voice loud and clear yesterday morning. It started even before church when I had some unexpected alone time to listen to some christian pandora and get ready for my day. The very first song of the day was Oh Glorious Day, which to me is the uplifting song that blew the roof off the church the first Sunday after my uncles death. As soon as pandora chose that song I knew it was gonna be a day. Then as Ryan spoke exact answers to my recent questions I thought "ok ok I got it" I was surrounded by love, honest pure family love all day. I had not realized that there is no birthday shot as sweet or any birthday jam with as much swag as the feeling of being completely immersed in love that I know is not going anywhere, no matter what.
I could go on and on about every little detail of the crab legs the soccer playing and the breakfast club but I could sum it up much easier by saying: this change in birthday scenery started my wheels turning a few weeks ago and continues, at least until the day after, to motivate thoughts of change and what if as I move into my new year, my new marriage, and my new blog.
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